jesus it’s just that after all my hard work and passion for this stupid stupid stupid contest and checking every day and just everything that I’ve like gone through due to it and now it’s like why does it matter when I didn’t even get to perform it and accept my award with my peers and like

walking out of the library surrounded by all the other winners made me feel

very strange and very very sad because I wasn’t a part of it

it was like I literally did it all for nothing and I never ever want to feel like this again

we’re in tech week for the play I’m directing but we worked it out so that’d I’d be able to go to the poetry reading

so I went

and the moment I walked up to the room it ended

so

yeah

I THINK??? I CAN GO??? TO THE POETRY THING??? AFTER ALL???

WAIT I MISSED THE PART WHERE YOU FINALLY FOUND OUT THE WINNERRS!!! OMG! BB! I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!

YEEEEAH THIRD PLACE WOOO AH THANK YOU BB!!!!! I’m a little less sad about not going now so that’s good

it’s gonna rain all week hahahaha jack my swag

loubertines:

if you have anxiety and you do a thing like get out of bed or call your mom back or go to the grocery store or go take that exam or give a presentation i’m really proud of you and if you don’t do that stuff i’m still super proud of you for existing!!!!

tardisity:

The oldest person alive was born on April 19, 1897, meaning that April 18th, 1897 was approximately the last time the Earth was inhabited by an entirely different set of people and if you don’t think that’s the realist shit ever then you can get right on outta town.